I just wanted to clarify something, and i hate that i have to even give this subject this amount of energy and attention, but I will. 

There is a clear and certain difference between stalking and admiration. 

Dictionary.com defines them as follows:

Stalking: verb =  1)To pursue by tracking stealthily. 2) To follow or observe (a person) persistently, especially out of obsession or derangement. 3) To go through (an area) in pursuit of prey or quarry.

Admiration or to admire: verb = 1) to regard with wonder, pleasure or approval 2) to regard with wonder or surprise 3) A feeling of wonder, pleasure or approval 4) the act of looking on or contemplating with pleasure

Clearly they are different.  I have stalkers and haters, people who are so pathetic, and have such boring miserable lives, they have nothing else better to do than watch my websites specifically, but among other things, the places i go, who i spend my time with, and the career moves i make, with a clear intent to do nothing else but track me down with only a preyful and malicious intent.  Those are the people i am calling stalkers.  They are men who don't like my size, ex boyfriends, friends of my ex boyfriends and women who are jealous, or also don't like my size.  These people are so pathetic, they sit an analyze every comment, or photo, or comment on a photo.

An admirer is different.  What i do puts myself out there for people to love or hate me and i am very aware of that.  If you are admiring me and coming to my page multiple times daily, daily, weekly or whatever, for the sole purpose to find pleasure in my photos or what i have to say, or watch my career because you feel i am making an impact on the BBW community, then that is GREAT!!!  You are not stalking me, you are not out to prey on me.  You are not trying to see me fail, you are in fact supporting me.

I know by posting this blog, i will get an influx of emails and comments addressing the situation.  I am not saying i do not put myself out there and not expect these things to happen, because quite frankly, i do.  I also know that if there is anyone in this community and industry who can handle it, it's definitely me.  This is about the extent of time these stalkers and haters will get from me.  Because while they are spending there time and their lives obsessing over me and what i am or am not doing...i am DOING other things, getting things accomplished, making the impossible things happen and they are still just sitting here wondering HOW i do or did it.  While I'm doing what they wish they could or had the balls to do, they are still sitting there, not doing. I frankly don't care if anyone hates me, i know enough to take the good with the bad.  Does any one hater really think they are the first person in my whole life to HATE on me?  Please, I've dealt with that from a young young age.  Does any creepy stalker think they are also a first, are you kidding me?  I remember the guys and girls who were obsessed with me and my doings in my junior high and high school days, those are the people, who, well, just to be blunt, can never be me, so they obsess.  They existed then, they exist today, and they will exist tomorrow.  We all have our place in this world, and we often choose where that place or status is, if that is the sad sorry choice they have made, well then that is their prerogative. 

I do not focus my attention on people who talk and say, I focus on the DO.  And like i have said before, the competition (or otherwise) can keep talking, i am and always will be two steps ahead ~ I find it all amusing really, so the more they do this sort of thing, the more i realize i am doing something right.  So haters and stalkers, keep it coming, you are quiet entertaining for me.  They can keep talking, i will always "hear" them.  They can keep trying to interfere with my life or career, but you should never tango with someone unless you know how to dance.  And they can keep letting there jealousy get in the way of what really matters, i will continue to give them a reason to be jealous, i enjoy the flattery.

Another note, to those women who can't stand or understand the fascination of me and this community, you don't have to, just accept and deal with, because we are getting bigger, no pun intended, and we are getting stronger. So while you cant understand why your boyfriend or ex boyfriend would rather be with a BBW or otherwise, realize this one true fact of life, its because YOU are lacking in some aspect or not giving him what he needs ~ focus your energy on fixing YOU instead of trying to figure out the why.  Plain and simple, some women are just better no matter how much or what YOU have to offer ~ so get over it!  Some skills in life you are blessed with and no amount of education can teach you ~ I am blessed and can always learn the rest, if i choose to.

~Blowing you all KISSES~